i’m not going to lie. my job can be a bit boring. now don’t get me wrong i love the type of work that i do (i am just good at sorting/organizing/dealing with paperwork). give me a stack of paper over an annoying person any day! but back to my boring job. it can be mundane…same routine for almost 13 years…sorting, scanning, filing, stamping, copying – you get the point – i am not claiming i don’t ever make a mistake but i can do my job almost on auto pilot. kind of like getting to work after a long night. you park the car and as you are walking to the door you think: i am already here i hope i didn’t run any read lights because i don’t remember my drive at all! a lot of days i leave and think well i guess that is over. needless to say i have a lot of time to reflect on things and allow my imagination to go wild (especially when i am scanning – boo). anyways over the past few days i have had a ton of time to reflect on things, people, events, dreams, hopes everything….
in high school i wouldn’t say that i was popular by any standard but i hung with the popular people. i knew who to sit with and who to accept party invitations from and who to avoid. i had friends in high school from all over the popularity spectrum. as our reunion gets closer it makes me realize that a lot of my friends weren’t really friends at all, but bodies that were meant to interact with me during a fantastic time of my life (fantastic should be read with disdain and sarcasm). i see these people on facebook and sometimes out in public and it makes me want to gag. they have the fake “omgitissogoodtoseeyouhopeyouarewellloveyou” attitude as they run the other way. (i will pause to admit i usually will duck down another aisle if i see someone i don’t want to talk to). it kills me that people are still so fake to me. it isn’t like i am saying i have never been fake with some of these people, but i know that i am who i am and if you don’t like that it is ok. i don’t have to impress you so that i can eat lunch with you anymore. i am an adult and i can sit alone dang it! as the reunion draws near i have been asked if i am going to go…i thought about it (about as long as it took me to blink) and said no. i don’t need to be in a room of people that i know now as only status updates and act like we are still close like we were. yes i still talk to people from high school and yes i still see people from high school and yes i still am friends with people from high school…but i don’t need a reunion to see them and hug them and catch up on what their last status was or where their latest mobile upload was from…i simply call them or text them and say hey dinner soon? and we do.
so as i sit here and scan and think…happy 10 years to being out of high school and cheers to the relationships that have gotten stronger with years.