so a while ago i posted about jasper my cricket (conscience) and how he went to the gas station and work with me. it has been so funny because i have seen so many crickets since posting that. some have been on the windshield and some have just been around and they catch my eye. a day or two after that post andy and i were riding around on the farm (after feeding the animals) and a cricket jumped on the rtv windshield. i laughed and said look it is jasper (i had to explain who jasper was since andy doesn’t read the blog) and he laughed (i believe it was a curtsy laugh and i believe there was a little bit of eye rolling in there too). a little bit later (maybe 2 minutes) a stink bug landed on the windshield.
***side note: i am so very over stink bugs they are everywhere and are on my nerves. i wish they would go away. ***
so andy was like oh you must be mean or are having mean thoughts since your conscience has changed into a stink bug. i laughed and thought if that were true maybe a rattle snake would be on the windshield….
for the past several weeks i have been seeing jasper everywhere. he has been on the porch, at the farm, on the sidewalk at work. it seems like jasper shows us at the most random times but at funny times. a lot of times if i am thinking something mean i will catch a glimpse of something out of the corner of my eye and there will be jasper just shaking his head at me. his presence makes me evaluate what i am thinking about (sometimes giving me a change to revoke those mean thoughts and practice patience/compassion/understanding). i am not going to lie and say that i immediately change my line of thinking or anything like that…but it makes me evaluate it (and sometimes that is a step in the right direction). sometimes when i am waiting on andy to pick me up at work (standing on the sidewalk like an 8th grader waiting on their mom at the movie theater friday night) one will jump by and i will think of how i am not alone on that sidewalk…i am never alone – i have jasper.