so they say that marriages based on truth and communication will last. i heard that in our marriage counseling classes before we got married and i have heard it from friends that were married before us. i heard it from people who experienced failed marriages. trust. that is the foundation for a happy and healthy marriage. so in our marriage we have really strived to be honest with each other. up front with what we are thinking and feeling. we try not to sugar coat things so that the truth can be accepted as what it is and interpreted as what the other means which prevents trying to decipher if there are hidden meanings. i feel like we have done a wonderful job with this. sometimes we say things and they might sting a little bit, but in the end we (i will take this time to speak for andy…hopefully i am right and he feels the same way) take what the other says to heart and after reflecting on it we are able to see that the other person wasn’t trying to be intentionally mean but instead was trying to be clear and honest. it is something that has worked well in our relationship and marriage and then i found out our marriage was based on a lie…
we were talking and after some wild tangent (i am sure) we started talking about our wedding and that progressed into our colors – black and blue. i knew for a long time that i wanted our wedding to be simple yet elegant and i wanted that theme to radiate throughout the day. i knew i wanted to use my favorite colors and that they would play right into it. blue and black. i will add here that andy was on board for pretty much whatever. he was very hands on during the entire process and never really questioned my desire for black and blue. he was on board. i remember one of the first things people would ask me about was the colors. i would tell the person black and blue and would get a funny look and would be asked what shade of blue?! i guess because there are so many different shades of blue people wanted to know exactly what shade so i started answering black and blue – smurf blue. that seemed to make people happy. at some point in time i heard andy tell someone that our colors were black and panther blue. my thought was that for people who lived around here that was a good description of the color and people would know exactly what shade that was (esp. going into stores looking for that specific shade of ribbon, ties, candles, bags, etc). it just became part of our wedding planning to toss in panther blue. it offered clarity to others and eliminated further questions and responses.
i am now learning (after years of blissful marriage) that andy really thought our wedding colors were black and panther blue (because of the panthers – not because that was the best way to describe that shade of blue). our marriage started out based on a lie.
are we doomed because our circle of trust and honesty is broken? was it just a misunderstanding and we will be ok? will we need therapy to undo what has been done? does this start the beginning of a battle that will last for years over who interpreted our colors correctly?
questions questions questions…..